Shining Within Us

Lord Jesus, your light is shining within us,
Let not my doubts and darkness speak to me.
Lord Jesus, your light is shining within in us.
Let my heart always welcome your love.

I have accidentally omitted this beautiful song in my recent article on the Taize prayer service which was held in our parish.  With a slow and gentle tempo, this song allows us anyone who sings it to meditate, to let one's heart speak to the Lord.

 

Lord Jesus, your light is shining within us,
Let not my doubts and darkness speak to me.
Lord Jesus, your light is shining within in us.
Let my heart always welcome your love.

I think of this song as I recall that horrible mass shooting at a gay nightclub in Orlando, Florida. In an interview, the father of the gunman had one question to his son: Why? Indeed, most if not all of us affected by this incident would echo the same question. Is it pure hatred on the LGBT (Lesbian, gay, Bisexual, Transgender) community? If it is, would killing 49 people and wounding another 50 be justifiable?

 

Lord Jesus, your light is shining within us,
Let not my doubts and darkness speak to me.
Lord Jesus, your light is shining within in us.
Let my heart always welcome your love.

My thoughts too go to that bishop in Shanghai, China, Thaddeus Ma Daqin who recently made an about face when he publicly recanted his decision to bolt the Chinese Catholic Patriotic Association (CCPA). CCPA is sanctioned by the state to control the life of the Catholic Church in China since the 1950s. Control includes ordaining their own bishops without the blessing from Vatican. When Daqin was ordained, he publicly dissociated himself with CCPA. Put under house arrest, he did not give into pressure to recant and served as a model to Catholics who secretly maintained their loyalty to Rome. Until last June 12. What made him change his mind?

 

Lord Jesus, your light is shining within us,
Let not my doubts and darkness speak to me.
Lord Jesus, your light is shining within in us.
Let my heart always welcome your love.

While my heart has high hopes for the President-elect in my land of birth, I felt uneasy with how he has already alienated a host of people: the UN, the Catholic Church (albeit I would imagine that his ire is more focused on the leaders of the Church), the Martial Law victims, women, the media, and the Vice President-elect (I could understand why he is not going to appoint her to his Cabinet, but having a separate inauguration is beyond me!). He seems hell-bent to have the former dictator buried at the Libingan ng mga Bayani.  Why? To console the Marcoses at the expense of the many who suffered under the dictatorship? Elections are political exercises. They divide people. Some are in this camp, while another is on that camp, etc. But now that they're over, shouldn't Duterte, as paterfamilias, reach out to everyone (regardless if they voted for him or not) instead of catering only to the needs of his friends and others close to him?

 

Lord Jesus, your light is shining within us,Let not my doubts and darkness speak to me.
Lord Jesus, your light is shining within in us.
Let my heart always welcome your love.

In these moments of darkness and doubt, in these times when we would often ask "Why?", let us take courage in Jesus' light "shining within us". Let us also pray that this same light will shine on the victims of the Orlando shooting, on Omar Mateen (RIP) and others who have wrong views on other people, on Thaddeus Ma Daqin, on our fellow Catholics in China who keep the faith alive, on President-elect Duterte, and on our country.  And because it's Father's Day this Sunday, let us also remember all fathers in our prayer.  May we all be guided by this light to work for what is true and just.

 

Finding our Image in the Darkness

We went shopping one Friday of Lent, two years ago.  We collected 2 portraits - our family's and Chiara's -  and then proceeded to buy some food. As it was Friday, we thought of eating some fish so we we put one on our trolley. (I can't remember now if it's salmon or trout or another specie.) We took some vegetables, fruits, and other provisions for the home.

The big shop was teeming with people - I even saw some colleagues from work or the parish.  People were stuffing their household for the weekend.

As we made our queue to pay for what we shopped, the lights went off.  In a few minutes, we were advised to leave the building, including what we were supposed to buy. Staff members guided shoppers as we made our way out.  Some even entertained questions. Some customers were lucky to go home with their purchased items. Others, like us, waited in the hope that power would return.  

As it was getting cold, we decided to stay in the car. Chiara was getting uneasy. "Are you hungry, baby?," I asked. She gave the affirmative. We went out and made our way to a small canteen located just next to this big shop. Strangely, the canteen has power!  While eating, we noticed some more shoppers making their way to the canteen too.  I was also keeping an eye should lights and all be back in the shop.  There was none. We decided to head home. 

Lent is a moment when we think of those times when we are in darkness.  Being in the dark can be scary. You thought you're already at the end of the tunnel, only to find out you have to keep going. You thought your prayers are already answered, only to discover that they weren't. You kept on hoping against hope.  

When we drove home from the shop, we thought we're leaving empty-handed. We realized we brought home our portraits, our images.  (Luckily, we have paid for these separately before we looked for other items.)  Our shopping wasn't in vain after all!

If we are tempted to give up, hang on for just a second!  We may seem to be empty-handed like the Prodigal Son.  But, we carry in us that portrait, that image of God (Genesis 1:27). This Lent, let's rediscover it. Let's appreciate it. Let's make it come alive so we can reach out to others who may also be in the dark like us and together move from darkness into the Lord's wonderful light (cf. 1 Peter 2:9)!

A blessed Lenten season to all!

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For the record, I am not supporting moves calling for President Noynoy Aquino to step down from office.  I'm surprised that some men of the cloth have made this appeal. (Strangely, they didn't make a similar move when Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo was in power.) While I agree with the view from some quarters that the country is in the dark brought about by the mis-encounter between the SAF and the MILF/BIFF in Mamasapano, Maguindanao last month, I believe that demanding P-Noy to step down will thrust our country more into the dark pit! 

Can we just slow down this Lent so we can listen more carefully to the signs of the times instead of calling for someone to resign? Can we just pause and let the darkness of Mamasapano strengthen us Filipinos - from the President to the youngest citizen - towards renewal and transformation (not the transformation these P-Noy bashers are campaigning for)?